|Channeling Cheech & Chong: Carrot Cake My Eye!|
This is going to sound crazy, but after finishing my last short story (Sun Jelly Pastures), I went through a strange sort of grieving process. Personally, I thought it was a pretty fantastically original story. For five weeks or so, I poured myself into creating characters, moods, imagery, feelings, and environments that were so meaningful and real to me, it was like having some sort of mystic experience. I became very close to a fellow blogger, Madilyn, who graciously assisted me in my research of Navajo culture. When it was all over, I felt bereft. Although I don't like to admit it, I've actually wondered if I'll ever be able to write anything that good again; that's how much I loved my story. I have no idea whether other writers can identify with such a feeling, but there it is.
Just for the hell of it, I've submitted Sun Jelly Pastures, as well as the first short story I wrote (The Appointment) to several different national fiction-writing competitions. I figure it can't hurt. I'm fully aware of just how competitive the writing market is, so I don't have much in the way of expectations. Maybe someone will like my stories and my style. Who knows? You never know until you try, right?
|Me (center) as Dr. Frank N Furter, 1980|
I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my writing. I guess my question is, do I have to do anything with it, other than what I'm already doing? I hate the idea of having to do anything. That's why I'm determined to make working part-time work for me. I like having the freedom to work as much or as little as I want, to be the one in charge of how I spend my time. The thought of being under somebody's thumb is objectionable to me. I really can't help it. I'm an unapologetic free spirit who has little regard for social conventions. I'm a writer because I write. I enjoy what I write, and I think that's probably good enough.
|A rainbow sprinkled crapshoot of sugary delight|
For those of you who didn't "get" the Cheech & Chong reference, here's "Earache My Eye."